I remember getting the email at work. I kind of sat paralyzed thinking to myself about how soon this was. It seemed like just yesterday we were told about Covid as a nation and now suddenly there is SOLUTION? I felt incredibly nauseous and unsure and my mind spiraled with what my next step was….
BECAUSE IF I WAS NOT VACCINATED IN THE NEXT COUPLE OF WEEKS I WAS GOING TO LOSE MY JOB.
It made me want to cry. Being a mother there is absolutely no room or space for one day of unemployment. 4 children and a grandchild; the money that I currently make isn’t enough. What would I do with less?
I thought of ways to maximize my entrepreneurial skills in such a short period of time and all that really happened was my anxiety was heightened. I was forced in the working world to get a flu shot and now this?
Working in the medical field and in the face of patients poses so many risks for both patient and employee. But working in clerical roles with minimal patient contact or none at all felt so invasive.
LIKE I REALLY DIDNT HAVE THE POWER OR THE MONEY TO DECIDE WHAT I WANTED TO DO WITH MY OWN BODY.
I’m forever scarred. Now vaccinated I feel violated and weak. I feel like a lab rat waiting on certain outcomes. I’m not a conspiracy theorist. I’m a realist. One who believes in the power of God and utilizing my own knowledge to keep me and my family safe. But that’s all hindsight because I collapsed into “I gotta take care of my family” and if I’m candid, it makes me feel like I let them down…
-V
